Over the past few weeks, despite my various commitments and responsibilities, I have found myself almost aching for uninterrupted time at home doing nothing. Not a fancy vacation, not binge-watching Netflix with mint chocolate chip ice cream, not even catching up with friends and family over the phone or in person. I’ve just wanted to sink into the daily act of living, without any excited or nervous anticipation of events, without feeling pressed for time or in a rush. My mind and body have felt deeply tired and I’ve craved the repetition of days spent doing all the small regular tasks needed to maintain a healthy and ordered life.
在過去的幾個星期里，盡管要面對各種各樣的必做事務和職責，我仍然發現自己近乎是在祈盼一段不受打擾的時光，在家無所事事地度過。不是奢華的假期，不是邊吃薄荷巧克力邊刷網飛，甚至不是與朋友和家人煲電話粥或者面對面地聊天，我只是想扎進日常的生活里，不用因為任何活動事項的預期而感到興奮或緊張，也不再因為時間或者緊迫感而緊繃。我的身心已經極度疲勞，渴望能日復一日地去做那些維持健康有序生活所需的常規小事。